sunday- home. then we went to the fishers' house for a birthday dinner for my dad with lee, belle, my parents, wes and ginny, and christy and mark. then we came home.
*she keeps waking up early in the morning now.

monday-we spent the whooooooole day at home.

tuesday- home. then we got up and got port of subs and took it to lee's mom's house. then we took his mom to target so she could get some stuff for her trip to ny for work. then she took us to dinner at twin dragon with leilani (lee's sister). then we dropped leilani off, then lori, then we came home.

wednesday- home. lees mom's. wendy's and taco bell for lunch. then we went to the mall. i got my nails done, lee got a new ps2 with a couple games, i got new pants and we bth got new shoes. then we went to target and bought belle a new outfit and a new toy. she looooooves her toy, it's a baby einstein toy that looks like an ipod and when you hit the middle button it plays a song and does lights with it. then we went to walmart and then back to lee's mom's. then on the way home we stopped at play'n'trade and game stop. then we came home and dropped our stuff off. my dad offered to watch belle for us while we went out to dinner at chili's. then we stopped at walmart to look around and then we came home.

thursday- home. then we went to best buy and got lee a new computer monitor. then we stopped at ups to drop off the old dish reciever box we had to return to them. then we came home for a little while. then we left and we went to sadistik tattoo and piercing and i got my nose pierced. then we went to shang-hi for lunch and then we went to the mall. then we came home because belle was hungry and silly me...i forgot her formula...oops.

friday- home. then i got up and i picked up nathalie and we went to sallys to get bleach for my hair. then we came home and did my hair and then we went back to sallys to get more bleach and then we got little ceasars for lunch. then we came home and re-did my hair. then i dropped her back off at her mamas house and came home.

*belle sat up (supported) on her own today!!! today she's three months old.

saturday- home. then i went to target to check my hours. then i came home.

sunday- home. then i took lee to work. then i came back home and hung out with belle. then i went and picked lee up from work. and then we came home for the night.
* she sat up for a few seconds then her head wobbled and she fell to the side.

monday- home. then we got up and got ready and we went to safeway for lunch. then we went to target and i got lee part of his valentines day present. then we went and we got more stuff from lee's mom's and came home.

tuesday- home. then we went to jack'n'the box for our free fries to show our support for poor poor jack. then we came home. then we had to run to scolari's for milk and formula. then we came home.
*she's eating and sleeping so much. i think she's having a growth spurt.

wednesday- home. then we went to walmart and i got another part of lee's valentines day present. then we went to ross to get me some new work pants and then we went to petsmart to get more snake food. then we came home for a little. then we went to lori's to get more stuff and stopped at costco and picked up pizza for dinner. then we came home and set up belle's room.
*she's pretty much sitting up on her own, it's so amazing!

thursday- home. then we went to quiznos then we came home to eat. then we went and got more stuff from lori's for belle's room. then we came home.
*she held her bottle on her own for like a minute this morning while lee was feeding her!

friday- home. then we went to target to get lee's check and then we went to safeway to cash his check and and get lunch. then we came home to get ready. then we went to target to drop lee off for work and so i could get the last part of his present. then i went to dinner at murietta's for dinner with belle, mom and dad, ginny and wes, and jerry. then i came home for a bit and then i went to pick lee up then we came home.
*she's sucking her hand a lot now.

saturday- home. then i got up and went to kholes and costco with my parents. then we came home and lee and i hung out all day. then we went to safeway and got stuff for dinner. we came home and made dinner and hung out.
*lee scared belle today and it was the first time that she was geneinely scared.

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sunday- home. then we went to wes and ginny's for the super bowl. lee told my dad we wanted to move in with them. then i took lee to work and then went back to wes and ginny's. then i went home and then went to pick lee up from work and then we went home and started to pack.

monday- home. then we moved stuff into my mom and dads. so now we are no longer living with lees mom we're living with my parents.

tuesday- home. went and got another car loadof studd and then came home.

wednesday- home. then we went to quiznos, best buy, to get gas, and to the doctors office to get belle's shot record. then we stopped and got another load of stuff and then came home.

thursday- home.

friday- home. then we went to walmart and the bank to open lee and belle's bank accounts. then we came home to help my dad watch the dish guys while they installed everything. then we went to wendy's and taco bell for lunch. then we went to our WIC meeting. then we stopped at target, went to dinner, went to best buy and walmart. then we came home.
*she can pretty much sit up on her own now.

saturday- home. went and got more stuff. walmart. home.
*she almost rolled over this morning while i was changing her!

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sunday- home. mcdonalds. home. then i took lee to work and went my parents for dinner.
*i missed belle so much while she was gone this weekend and i'm so happy she's home. she's outgrown all but one of hernewborn sized outfits.

monday- home. then we went to walmart. then home again.
*she's "talking" so much. she's getting really close to being able to laugh and roll over.

tuesday-home. then i got up and brought belle with me to dinner at my parents. then we came home.
*she LOVED the curtains at my parents house, she was "talking" to them and smiling and touching them.

wednesday- home. then lee belle and i went to Rayleys to pick up our free chicken meal. home again.
*she's always so smily and happy now.

thursday- home. then i took belle to costco to get milk and formula. home.

friday- home. we went to target to pick up lee's check and then to the bank to cash it. then we came home.
*she is trying to click her tounge all the time. she can be slightly layed back and push herself into a sitting position. she is always trying to laugh and is getting really close.

saturday- home.
*we took a nap together today, it was nice. =]

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sunday- home. dinner at my parents with my aunt and uncle, and my brother and kendra. then we came home.
*she's content just sitting with us most of the time. ginny says she's not teething...well at least there are no bumps in her gums.

monday- home. then lee belle and i went to Costco to turn in an application. then we went to at&t to return the modem we bought. then we went to game force and bought a game and then to game crazy and bought lee an Xbox. then we came home.
*she's so fussy, it bums me out to see how upset she gets.

tuesday- home. costco. papa murphy's. home.
*she can almost roll over.

wednesday- home. then i took belle with me to my mom's work for lunch and so my mom could show her off to all her co-workers. then i came home. then we went to the welfare office to try and turn in some stuff. then we went to game force and got lee another game. then we came home.
*she's eating 6 oz now.

thursday- home. then we went to the baldini's gas station to sell the mac computer screen lee had that we couldn't use. then we went to the atlantis to trade lee's snowboard for an snes a few games and two controllers. then we came home for a nap. then we went to game force. then we came home.

friday- home. then belle and i took lee to work. then we went to dinner at murriettas with my parents, ginny and wes, jerry, and judy. then we went to my parents house so my mom could help me do my taxes and so i could drop off belle for the weekend.
*she's staying at my parents this weekend (her first time away from home =[) she's starting to focus on things really well now. it's really amazing to watch her grow.

saturday- home. then we went to walmart, jack'n'the box and burger king. then we came home and went to bed. then lee and i woke up and got ready and went to lunch at cj's palace. then we dropped off an outfit for belle at my parents. then we went to get gas then we went to target to get lee's w2. then we came home and rested for a tiny bit. then we went to dinner at the outback for my brother's birthday with my parents, my brother (of course), and kendra.
*my parents weighed belle and said that she weighs 12lbs 8oz! wow she's gained two pounds already!

that's all.
going to play mabinogi now.
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sunday- home. then we went to costco and walmart. then we came home. i took belle to dinner at my mom and dad's, wes and ginny came as well.
*belle pretty much has a good sleep pattern she'll go to bed around 8 or 9 p.m. and wake up around 4-6 a.m.- i had her sitting on the counter at my parent's and she pushed herself into a standing position.

monday- home. we went to at&t to get internet and a phone for the house. then we went to apply at WIC. we stopped at renown to get a form for belle's birth certificate. then we stopped at welfare to check on our medicaid. then we went to target and walmart. then we came home.

tuesday- home.
*lee gave belle a bath today and she didn't cry at all and smiled the whole time. he said the only noise she made was a coo when he first put her in cause she didn't know what to think about the temp. change.

wednesday- home. lee and i went winco. then we came home and fed the snake and stuff like that.
*i can't believe how big she's getting- we think she might be starting to teeth or sick or something she's REALLY fussy.

thursday- home. lee and i went to walmart then came home. linda and reign from next door came over to visit for a little today.
*belle is 8 weeks old today, she's getting so big and i can't believe it!

friday- home. went to the dr's at 10:30 for 2 of belle's 3 shots. then we went to target to pick up lee's check then to the bank to cash it. then we went to walmart and did a little bit of grocery shopping. then we came home and ate. then later we went and got gas and went to winco for the rest of our grocery shopping. then we came home and lee went to work.

saturday- home. dinner at the vista grille with my parents, my aunt marilyn and my uncle michael. then we came home.
*she's smiling so much now- this morning when i went into her room to get her she was crying and i said "it's okay i'm here now" so she stopped crying and once she saw me she just smiled and cooed and kicked her legs around in excitement, it was so amazing.

that's all.
night.
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this week was a very uneventful week, just a for-warning.

sunday- once we were all ready lee and i went over to my parent's house to drop the baby off and pick up my cousin rae. we took rae to see Madagascar 2 at the gsr's $3 theater while my mom, dad, and aunt terry babysat. once we got done at the movies we stopped by home and grabbed rock band then we went back to my parent's house for dinner and to play rock band...which was pretty darn interesting to say the least haha. then after that we came home for the night.
* i love when belle smiles at me, it's the best and most amazing thing ever. she slept for about 10 1/2 or 11 hours last night (from about 11pm to about 10 am)

monday- once we woke up in the morning lee and i went to my dr. appointment. then we ran to target. then we came home and got the baby. then we went to my parent's for dinner with my parents and my aunt and cousin. we played some mario kart wii and some super smash bros brawl for the wii with rae. then we stopped at jack'n'the box on the way home then came home and ate.

tuesday-we spent the whole dang day at home.
*belle is back to eating every few hours- i think we aren't feeding her enough because her stomach grew or something.

wednesday- home again.

thursday- home againnnnnn.
*belle is now 7 weeks old. she's so well behaved, she's a great child. she can be laying in her crib by herself and will just look around quietly for hours sometimes. her hands are also open most of the time now.

friday- spent it at home, yet again.

saturday-home as well.

like i said, my week wasn't very eventful. hope everyone is having a good new year so far.
night.
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so before i start i'm going to say that i'm not going to be posting many pics anymore, if you'd like to see them ask me and i'll send you some or the link to her photobucket album that i made. another thing is that i've started writing about my days in a day planner so that i can write what went on that day so i'll pretty much do an overview of what happened then at the end if there is a * that is just little tid bits about belle that happened that day or things i have to say about belle or what not.

sunday- i spent the day at home until lee had to go to work then i dropped him off at work. after i dropped him off at work i went over to my parents house with belle for dinner. my parents left for my dad's christmas party. my uncle, his girlfriend, my grandma and i had pizza for dinner and sat around talking. we watched a bit of wall-e then belle and i came home. then i went to pick lee up from work.

monday- lee, belle, and i went over to my parent's house to say bye to my uncle and his girlfriend. after that we went to target to pick up diaper, hair dye, and the santa clause (movie that lee won from work). then we ran to the mall to buy my new plugs and charmed season one. then we came home and dropped belle of with lee's mom. lee and i then went to lunch at cj's palace and then to costco. then we came home and died our hair (his we re-did black and mine we did a burgundy) and guaged my ears to 7/16. then lee and i went to the movies to see valkyrie with josh, heather, heather's dad, and heather's sister.
*belle can almost sit up on her own (how crazy!)

tuesday- we started off at home like usual. then we went to the bank to cash my christmas checks. then we went to gamestop and quiznos. then we came home and played games and ate our dinner.

wednesday- home. lee went to work and i got all ready. once lee got home all three of us went to denny's for dinner and midnight.
*lee said that on either monday or tuesday night belle crawled a few steps(...already?!?! UH OH!!!)

thursday- let me just start off by saying happy new year! the day started off at denny's. then we came home and went to bed. later that night we went to dinner at the fisher's house with christy, mark, mj, mom, dad, grandmumz, lee, belle, and i. then we came home.
*belle is 6 weeks old

friday- home. when we woke up we went to work and picked up lee's check and then went to cash it. then we went to belle's doctors appointment. then we came home. then we went grocery shopping and then came back home and played some games.
*belle now weighs 10 pounds 8 ounces is 21 inches long and everything is looking good. her next appointment is 1/16/09 for shots, poor thing.

saturday-home. dinner with my mom, dad, my aunt terry, and my cousin rachael. then lee and i took rae out to ice cream, my mom dad and aunt terry babysat belle while we were gone (which they hated of course ;)). then we came home and dropped belle off. then lee and i went and got some more grocery's that the store had been out of the night before. then we came home and made a home-made pizza and played games.
*i was feeding belle and stopped to wipe her mouth off and she just sat there and smiled at me for so long and then after she was done eating she was laying on me and she held her head and herself up with her arms for a good minute or two-she's starting to vocalize more- her legs are also getting strong.

that was my week, it was pretty eventful...more eventful than most that is. i have more family coming this upcoming weekend too, how exciting. well night.
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sunday belle and i went over to my parents house for dinner with my parents, my brother, his girlfriend, my grandma, and two friends of the family. she also slept in her crib for the first time.



monday was pretty much spent at home like usual. nothing really eventful happened. belle did sleep for 8 1/2 hours that night, which was fantastic. =]





tuesday was again spent at home. nothing big again.



wednesday was christmas eve of course. belle opened one of her presents from lee and i (a rattle). we pretty much spent all day at home together.





thursday of course was christmas. at midnight exactly lee and i woke belle up and let her open up her presents. when we woke up in the morning we got ready and headed over to my parents house. once we got there we were put right to opening our stockings and presents. then lee and i headed home and had dinner with his mom. after that lee and i went to the movies to see "bedtime stories" it was a really cute movie.




friday we woke up and got ready. i dropped lee off at work then belle and i went to the mall and i bought new plugs with my christmas money. then we came home for a bit then we went and had dinner with my parents, my grandma, and my uncle. that was pretty much the whole day. i have pictures but they are on my mom's camera and i'm waiting for her to send them to me.

saturday was spent at home again. nothing big happened.



today i took lee to work then belle and i went over to my parents house because my uncle and his girlfriend were there. my parents stayed for a little while then went to my dad's christmas party for work. i stayed and spent time with my grandma, my uncle, and his girlfriend. then belle and i came home and here we are now.



that's been my week in short. it's nice that belle has started to sleep for longer periods of time at night, she usually sleeps anywhere from about 6-9 hours. she's pretty much sleeping the whole night, or at least most of it. she finally gets to go back to the doctor this week which is good. i'm excited to see how much she's grown and to make sure that everything is going along well with her. i also go back to the doctor this week to make sure i'm all healed and such. my uncle and his girlfriend leave tomorrow. my grandma leaves on saturday and my aunt terry and cousin rachael come a few hours after she leaves. lots of family visiting. =]
bye now.
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so monday lee and i took belle with us to get a castle from a guy for the fish tank.
that was belle's first time seeing the snow.




tuesday i hung out at home all day with the baby while lee worked.




wednesday i spent the day at home with the baby again.




thursday we spent the day at home...again.



friday we went to get lee's check. then we went grocery shopping. then i took belle with me to my parents house for dinner because my grandma came to town. belle also got introduced to ashe. after dinner i came home and lee and i went to walmart and bought a christmas tree.




saturday lee's friends came over(one was belle's godfather)and they all played video games for awhile. then lee belle and i went to petsmart to "get fish", once we got there lee told me he was buying me a snake for my christmas present, he's the best, i love him so much, he knows me so well buying me something i've wanted since i was like 13. after we bought the snake we brought him (lumier) home and got him all set up in his new home. then we took belle with us to costco and bought 101 dalmations and sleeping beauty for belle for christmas (and some other stuff.) then we went to walmart to see if they had beauty and the beast. then we dropped everything off at home. then we went to the mall to see if any of the stores there had it. this was also belle's one month birthday. we did her foot and hand prints in her baby book and gave her another bath.




that was pretty much the week. belle is starting to smile more and more. she's grown so much it's so crazy. she's starting to develop her voice and making more noises.
welp, that's all for now.
bye.
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thursday was spent at home except for when we went and got a fish tank and some new fish from some guy for free.
it was also belle's three week birthday- i can't believe how fast she's growing.




friday was spent at home. belle started to get fussy around 7 or 8 and cried for about an hour even with a full tummy and a clean diaper. she's also starting to sleep longer and make new noises.




saturday we went and bought belle's christmas presents. we bought her a thing for the side of her crib, a rattle, a pants, shirt, and sweatshirt set, and a little rubber ducky thing that goes over the faucet in the tub. we also stocked up on diapers, wipes, and formula. belle again got fussy around 7, i think she's getting colicy (uh-oh).





today belle and i hung out at home. lee got a huge new fish tank. my parents stopped by and brought us the crib mattress and a turkey. not much else happening today.





my grandma comes to town on friday i'm excited. saturday belle will be one month (already). it's gone by so fast. i don't get why people complain about babies crying and having to get up in the middle of the night, to me all that gets out weighed and it comes with being a parent. i love belle so much and i love watching her grow.
bye now. diaper changin/ baby feedin time!
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uneventful again, hung out at home for most of the day.
went to costco for pizza but that was pretty much it.
belle is starting to sleep longer, usually anywhere from 2-5 hours.
not much else to say.
bye.
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monday we got our new fridge in the morning.
then we went to target and costco.
then we brought belle home to spend time with grandma lorilee while lee and i ran to walmart and winco.
then we all napped together.



tuesday we bought the dark night and belle watched part of it with us.
we pretty much just hung out all day.
update later with info about today.

today wasn't eventful.
pretty much just hung out at home all day watching movies and laying in bed.
belle is starting to eat more. instead of eating just 2 floz. she's starting to eat 3-4 floz.
anyways not much to say today.
bye.
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belle had a big day today. she saw santa and had her first bath.
currently she's fast asleep on my chest.
i can't believe it's been more than two weeks already.
time flies.
night.
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my life has taken a whole different path than i had expected but i'm very happy with how it is.
after i got screwed out of the manager position at zumiez i began looking for a job else-where, now i'm working at target.
i'm not going to school this year, i delayed my start until next fall semester starts.
lee and i are back together and i'm living with him and his mom.
we now have a beautiful daughter, her name is belle mae navarrette. she was born on november 20, 2008 at 11:10 a.m. she's absolutely amazing. i love her so so so much.
i never talk to michelle or nilloufar anymore, and kersti and i parted ways shortly after our trip to disneyland.
it's funny how life can throw you so many curve balls.
it's funny how something you thought you never would want for yourself could make you so happy.
i never planned or wanted to be a teen parent, and now that i am, i'm so happy.
i love how my life has turned out.
tomorrow lee and i are meeting up with my mom to get pictures of belle with santa.
i'm going to try to update this a lot more now, i want to write about belle's progress and stuff.
buh-bye.
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my birthday was a week for today.
it was wonderful.
kersti and i had a rough patch about a month ago where we were to the point that we weren't going to be friends anymore and now things are really different between us.
she didn't even get me a card for my birthday.
things with money are really tight right now.
things are also kinda rough, but i'm making the best out of everything i can.
prom was on saturday and it was amazing.
working at zumiez still, hoping to get promoted to manager soon.
that'd be wonderful.
working my ass off with school and work.
barely time for anyone or anything besides that.
michelle and i are a hell of a lot closer now.
i can tell her anything and i love it.
nilloufar is the same way.
it feels good to be able to tell people something and know they are going to be there, support me, and not judge me, and keep my problems to themselves and not spread that shit to the world.
still single but i'm okay with it because i'm WAYYYY too busy to have time for a boyfriend.
this summer if going to be jam packed with vacations, roadtrips, and fun.
hopefully moving in with allyssa r. this summer.
UNR in the fall.
signed up for all my classes.
so overall things are good because i'm making the best out of shitty situations.
graduation is a little more than a month away.
i'm so scared, but excited.
my life is about to start.
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Thing are, well, alright, I suppose.
I feel like I loose myself more and more as the days drag on.
The only person I really feel is there anymore is Kersti.
Josh is in Oklahoma, engaged, so I never hear from him anymore.
Steph is working trying to pay off her restitution.
My brother is living his life, barely ever talk to him.
I'm trying to get closer to my parents though, we've been having weekly family dinners, it's nice.
For the first time since elementary school I got a 4.0 on a report card, and for the first time since elementary school I was actually, honestly, proud of myself.
I'm still employed with Zumiez, that's going well, I love it there, the people, the environment, everything.
This is my year, I turn 18, graduate, I grow up, and become my own person, I'm terrified, but I've never been more excited for anything in all my life.
I guess when I sit back and look at everything that's going on things are pretty alright.
But lately I feel myself falling away from people. I feel insufficient, not enough. I feel like people deserve better than me in their lives, I feel ugly and stupid. It happens though right?
Ehhhh.
I'm going to go now.
I'll try and update more.
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things are good.
family life is getting better.
working at zumiez now.
josh is in texas currently for the air force and will be living in oklahoma for that pretty soon.
i haven't seen him since he left in april.
going camping next week, can't wait.
i got a jewel glued to my tooth, and a grill.
ect.

i haven't updated in so long

things are still amazing

kersti moved back to her mom's so she's close again

josh is back in reno too (=]] he's my brotha from anotha motha)

i got the job at tilly's

my life is pretty much filled to the top right now

i'm very busy

between work, school, and friends i barely have time for anything else

my dad is getting worse and worse

but mom is getting better and better

i love my mom, she's the only support i get from a parent

my dad told her he wishes he had different kids

erik and i were pretty mad

as of new years i am still straight edge

as of 2 weeks ago i am vegetarean

i have a new way of thinking

things are great

still single but i don't care that much since i'm so busy

uhmmmm what else

i'm back to bleach blonde

i'll be 17 in a few months

weird to think

my brother just turned 20, even weirder to think

i love life

write later

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